so i declined the daycare job after all

why do i seem so determined to take jobs that i don’t want?
is it some inner compulsion to be employed?
is it a weird manifestation of self-loathing?

i am NOT going to take a job until i get offered one that i REALLY want

and on that note, i have a pretty cool interview tomorrow to be a companion/classroom aide to an 8-year-old autistic girl (starting with day camps this summer!)
and i’m still waiting to hear back from a recent interview at a tutoring facility
and i should be potentially getting invited to more interviews soon
so i’m happy